Praise Jebus

Sometimes, I wonder if life would be easier if I were born Christian, Catholic, or any one of those. I found this on some random girl's myspace page. She seems to believe in God and Jesus so entirely, it blows my mind. I mean, is life easier when you don't have to worry about boyfriends or marriage and you can just look to God to find happiness?

Monday, November 20, 2006


God stuff.... read only if you care about Him and me.

God blows my mind!! it seems like the second i think what else could go wrong or that it's all straighting out that it all hits the fan again (if you get my drift). and yet through it all i can sense God more than i have in a LONG time. i don't get it. there is so much to life right now i seriously feel like i have no emotion left and yet i can feel my soul crying. how did Jesus do it? i know i'm gonna get though this and i know that it's gonna rock more than breathing makes life happen and yet it's all so hazy. i feel God's presence so strong and i am listening to His voice but i feel so lost. it's like the more i'm willing to throw it to Him the more confused i get. He is so strong, so powerful, so amazing, so forgiving, so peaceful, so loving and my source of life and still i'm torn. if anyone has ever said that growing was easy they were serously wrong. don't get me wrong i'm excided to see God working but it's just to draining. i am really learning to put my energy in his hands, something i've never really had to do because He has always given me plenty. there are times that all i wanna do is sit in His presence but i know that i have stuff to do. God as i write this i have homework to be doing but i feel i need to write this. so once again i obey and surender my life and my grades to You. You have to give me the money and the grades to get though all this. You have to give me Your wisdom, Your energy, Your strength, Your peace and Your life. thanks God for the encouragement you have provided though caleb rowden's music. seroiusly every single song has spoken to me right where i am, now where i once was and not only just as little reminders but as worship and my heart crying out to God. God i'm not sure what all you're doing but i know i'm so excited to be part of it and i know that you're gonna get me and everyone else through it all, because you are a faithful God! my prayer is as follows: God, thanks for your love and please keep strengthening me in you and keep me in your glow. allow me to continue drawing on you and you on me as you lead me through life. You are so breathtaking and i am so speechless. God you are nothing more and nothing less than everything. "...my troubled mind, reminding me of desperation and of the peace i long to find, i wrestle with this world... it was your love a dead world's pardon, you gave it all, you gave for me, i'm falling into you. to you my life i will surrender, surreneder heart, min flesh and soul, reveal to me, reveal your calling, it is your will i long to know! cuz i'm falling into your love overwhelming, i'm falling into your grace, i'm falling where my heart knows no wrong, i'm falling into you..." God just take me in and be my all and all! ::sigh::

i know this is random as eating french fries on chistmas morning would be but it it just my heart and my thoughts. and yet i feel as if this can't and doesn't even begin to explain me, my thoughts and God.

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Crazy, huh? Amen sista. Amen.